Right know I'm enforcing a no fly zone in AzOk so this title might not go with it but this is what's up with me.
First I won't to say thank you Lord for the close friends in my life. I was talking to a couple of them and thinking about the sermon last Sunday after noon. One ask me why do you won't to do the military, first I'm like it be me and I could do it. Then all I would have so much fun, and I would have my life together. And I would now who I am. I would be part of a team and some thing big. Ooops I was not thinking. Though my good friends and family I started to see it was I, me, I I I and not me giving my life to the Lord and trusting Him. Yes I could do the military all on my own yes the Lords help be ok. But I could do it with out Him and with out having to trust Him. One of the question's was why don't you go into missions or some thing. You love people and love to serve. Aaaa I have to trust the Lord and vary fast I could see yes I new the Lord but wasn't giving my life to Him and trusting Him all the way.
This is not saying I have give up my dream for the military or I'm running off to 10 buck 2. It's I could see I was not living my life for the Lord as deeply as I should. I wont every one to now him and it like I read some thing in His word and it in packs me deep or moves me. I just wont to tell all my friends about it. But yet I was working my life and not giving it all to Him and I now when I'm giving my all to Him by mashers of the world my not have much, but they are the most wonderful times.
So I'm starting with giving my self to the church He has me in and the family I have there that love me deeply. The blessing they are to me. I just wont to give my free time and serve there and go one more missions. Last night talking to my dad he's like, Heath you make a fine Seal and a fine missionary. A lot of things you done in your life have prepared you for one of them or both. Though I can see you as a Seal, I can rilly see you enjoying missions and the Lord rilly blessing you and bring along some one for you that has the same dreams and heart for serves as you. Ok dad you in about 90 sec just killed the Seals. I can see I was living in the flesh.
So I don't know what my hole life plan is, but that's ok for I have a purpose and love and long to live my life out for the Lord and serve Him. Were this is going I have no idea, but it will be in serves to the Lord.
